SERENITY, PEACE & HAPPINESS

GOD - PLEASE GRANT ME THE SERENITY TO ACCEPT WHAT I CANNOT CHANGE, THE COURAGE TO CHANGE WHAT I CAN & A SMIDGEN OF YOUR INFINITE WISDOM SO I CAN REALIZE THE DIFFERENCE........AND GOD?? IF YA DON'T MIND, COULD YA MAKE THAT HAPPEN YESTERDAY?? PLEASE?????

I'm searching tonite - searching for peace of mind. I want my happiness & joy back, and I want it NOW. Just like a small child, eh? Instant gratification is what I seek. In all areas of my life. Not sure I wanna pray for patience - I'm afraid that I'll be sent more ways in which to test it out!! Today, my nerves are shot - that last one I had left?? Several people did their level best to tromp all over it........

I am level-headed right now, for the moment. May not be tomorrow. I'm extremely hurt, but I'm trying really hard not to hold onto any resentments - but I'm afraid I'm not trying as hard as I think I am, 'cause I still wanna hurt someone REAL bad. It'll pass tho - just like it always does. I'll open my heart & soul to those around me, give them the benefit of the doubt & the same azzholes who chmped me before will probably do so again. Maybe not. Don't know.

What I do know is this - I AM BIGGER & BETTER THAN THIS!! AND I WON'T BECOME ONE OF THE DOWNTRODDEN THROWAWAYS!! I WON'T SUCCUMB TO THE MADNESS!! I WILL STAND STRONG & BE TRUE TO MYSELF, NO MATTER THE OUTCOME.

In the infamous words of Gloria Gaynor - I WILL SURVIVE!!!!

Peace, kids. And good nite.......

WHERE HAS MY PEACEFUL ATTITUDE GONE??

Why, oh why can't I get a grip on my resentments? I know that I shouldn't let Ella get to me so badly, but she does. Over & over I hear about that stupid kitchen faucet, and over & over I tell her that I don't USE the kitchen faucet. Then she insists she wasn't accusing me, and I forever wonder why she brought it up in the first place if she wasn't. SO - I just gotta let it go, right?

Well - hopefully, I can. I'm trying, really. I wanna get past this so I can move on with my life. I will say a special prayer for Ella tonite, in hopes that I can get past this & not bear any hard will.

Okay - enough of that BS. Can you believe it's December already?? And only 19 more days til Christmas! Which means ----- drum roll, please ---- only 16 days til my birthday!! Oh yay - 52 years old. Isn't that special?? NOT!!!! LOL And am I ready for Christmas?? Of course not!

Still working in all my unfinished WIPs. One of these days, one of these days. I did get the legwarmers finished and outta the way. Working on Michael's blanket still. And, of course, now I have decided to try to knit some boots for Hannah. Like the UGG boots that are so popular right now, only in grey. Its an eperiment, so we'll havta see how that goes.

Well, it's movie time - catch ya'll later!!

Peace out!!